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Monday, April 30, 2012

Waiting to become 3


Today I am 38 weeks into my pregnancy. I have been on bed rest since 25 weeks and yet I do not know where the time has gone. I have always heard pregnancy feels like it takes a lifetime but I feel like it was just yesterday that my husband and I realized we were going to become parents. I remember thinking that the next 9 months were going to feel like a lifetime but that is just not how it has happened. The past 9 months have just flown by in the blink of an eye. The days, weeks, and now months came and went and now in 2 weeks or less our lives are going to change dramatically. In 2 weeks on Mother’s Day I am due to have my first child. In 2 weeks I will become a mother, I will join that group that most of my friends are already a part of. Right now I have this small miracle growing inside of me and I find it quite crazy to think about this fact.  To think that in 2 weeks my husband and I will be parents and have this whole other life we are responsible for caring for, guiding and shaping is crazy; this is an amazing gift and a little bit scary at the same time. I am at a loss for words and can not even begin to describe half of the emotions I feel just thinking about this gift we have been given. I hope and pray that we are able to provide her with the love and guidance she deserves as I know this next journey will be the best of our lives. I realize that times will not always be perfect and at times we may become frustrated but I look forward to this new and changing life. We have done our last shopping trips and as much preparing for the baby as possible. The only thing left to do is pack my hospital bag, which I have yet to do. I know it should be packed by now but I just hate packing even though I know I should probably get on top of this one task. Especially since I know she can come any day now according to my Dr and as anxious as me and Jason are to meet her and hold her in our arms we are patiently waiting for her big debut. I know she is still cooking in there and preparing herself for survival outside of my tummy and that is alright with me. Jason and I have tried to fill some of these last moments together with quality time as we know pretty soon there will no longer be 2 in our family but 3. We went on a wonderful date last weekend and I would say it was a beautiful way to say goodbye to a childless life and welcome the new path that is being paved before us. We have dreamed of becoming parents and have so many hopes and wishes for our daughters' life and I am filled with such joy at just the thought of her. Though right now all I pray for is a safe and healthy delivery of our sweet child, it has been a scary journey at times but she has fought through the past 9 months and made it to a pretty safe gestational age. I would say we are as lucky and ready as we can be and look forward to meeting the precious baby girl that as consumed our lives for the past 38 weeks.